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Saturday, July 09, 2005 Just came back from ID service. Yup! thank God that Huimin can join us today :)
You want to noe what we did the whole day? ok, tell u... In the morning, supposed to meet huimin they all at 10.45 to go JP's sch de...but then, I was late! I reached there at abt 11.10 am...aww... I hate the feeling of being late. It makes me feel so guilty everytime :( Not really that kind of guilty la, but a kind of feeling that I dunno how to describe. Then, when i reached there le, PJ, Shy and ZL were already there. So, we stood there and wait for huimin and cindy to come. Then, a man approached us and ask us to donate money...dunno en wat de la. So,we donated, and he gave each of us a friendship band, but we have to put our thumbprints on the board. So, we did it lor...and we got it. Then, PJ very funny leh. She start to open one by one and "destroy" it and make again... She's doing that the whole day before we reach church lor. hahas...I dun have that kind of patience for this kind of thing. I can have patience for others, but not this type that concerns string. I got easily irrtated by strings easily de. Cos they always tangle arh, then cannot take out, so got irritated by them le...hahas After Cindy and Huimin came le, we set off to JP's sch. The first time that i went to a sch funfair. Normally, schs hav open house, sian... games were boring, and the others too. When is my sch open hse?!! I miss it so much...and the teachers in there!! nvm...schsick...also can take it as homesick lah... cos sch always say that we r one big family and blahblahblah...hahas Anyway, when we reach there, I din talk much all the way there. So, huimin asked "y so sian?" ya...i got that feeling too, but it's not a very strong one. Dunno y too. And I've a impression to ppl that I must tok, I must laugh! If i dun, I'm not in a good mood. diao... I oso can act happy and high when i not in good mood rite? hahas... Truly, other than God, no one else understand me le. Other than God, I won't reveal my feelings to other ppl. That's y the little test that i took during CME lesson indicates that I'm stressed... Other ppl de, is only the 2nd or 3rd level...mine, 4th! Anyway, I dun think I'm stressed anyway. It's just the way i handle things tt happened....rite? Haix...kip getting out of topic de :( Reach there le, all we did there is eat! They bought Pineapple rice, nuggets, french fries, ice popsicles, bubble tea and dumplings. The pineapple rice is especially ex leh...but nvm... Then, they kip feeding me food leh. Know y? cos i din eat much. I merely ate the french fries, nuggets and dumpling. Anyway, I rejected the rest. They kip "forcing" me to eat leh. no lah...jkjk. Not forcing la, know that they care lah...hahas... happy or not? i use the word "care"...hahas Thank God that I din faint or anything lah, neither did my hunger distract me during the ID service. Cos i din had my breakfast and lunch. Also, thank God that they managed to put some food into my mouth... If not, i really cannot withstand it de. If i din take my breakfast, i can't really so called take it de. The hunger would disturb me very much. For lunch, it's ok...cos last time, before i return to God, I stay at home and dun even bother to hav my lunch. Also, thank God that today is a day for relaxing...for me who is studying cos if not, the sch wud surely made us run and i wud surely vomit! I'm always the one vomiting during taekwondo and basketball training last time :( ok...out of the topic again :( A person without focus is lyk tt, sorry! Ya..then we went church, reach there at abt 1++pm. Then we played a little bit of piano until Kris came. Then, the leaders start to have their prayer meeting. And me and PJ also join them. Wenda shared abt fasting. Then...so on la! Then, ID service. We played a game. That me being the eyes, abi being the mouth, fiona, cindy, yijia...(anymore? sry if i missed u out.) being the hands. Then our group no legs leh. So all of our legs were tied up. And me being the eyes, had to direct the group to the banana...hahas... Abi's job is to eat and Fiona's is to feed abi... Cheh...tie our legs oso no use. We use mostly our hands to get there. But our legs did play a part too... Dun understand wat i mean? u go crawl on the floor with ur back facing down and u try to take up ur leg and c if u can do it lah...hahas... Ya...this game is not played just for fun lyk ice breaking lyk tt. I mean not only for ice breaking lah. It's also for the sermon. Then the sermon... ok lah...to tell u all the truth... I think as all of u din realise, my passion for God is not that strong anymore :( It's getting weaker and weaker. But then, after the sermon, dunno y, it somehow grew stronger. thank God. And i've set my heart to spend more time reading His word le. And then hor, something i felt that it's "abnormal" is that the sermon got nth to do with the passion for God, but then, why did this happen? But anyway, thank God for this :) I think more or less, has something to do with when we were praying with Kris before the service lah. I mean her prayers... her words... Then dinner lah. Left only a few uths...the rest all went home. But then, thank God that all though we had only a little of us, but Zhiliang and Junping keep "entertaining" us...hahas...they were so funny... Ya....when we were waiting for the bus to come when we were going to church frm JP's sch. I said something lyk " I tell u all arh... My this year de grading surely fail de... believe it or not" Then they actually is not lyk my frens leh. They din believe it. Instead, they encouraged me. wah...wat is this? dun believe me! hahas...no lah...jkjk...thanks for that. And I have set my heart to try to strive harder to score good grades for my piano grading. Last time, when i take my Grade 2 grading (the only grading i took throughout all these years learning piano), I just got a pass...100...just pass. I felt lucky at that moment. Felt good that i pass. wah...wonder how can i take tt as good...mad le i think... Last time when i took the grade two grading, I think i haven come back to God yet ba. I din noe that i have to account to God( that time i was a "christian"). So, at that time, i only had to account to my mother. the only one... aiya...i persevere till this long also for her de. For many reasons. She did not threaten me, dun misunderstand. But bcos i'll feel guilty towards her for many reasons and i supposed i will have regrets years later. Now, I have to account to God, give glory to Him, my mother and a big group of bros and sis that din look down on me... thanks for that! I will strive! If u dun believe me, also must believe that God will help me rite? hahas WX
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other paths <--UthNity--> prayer list - When i'm at Ipoh...- Pray that i'll be able to slp well when i'm in Ipoh. It's really too terrible le. seriously. If i tell u the story, it will sound lyk ghost story. - Pray that I can have the time for my quiet time. cos i noe tt it's v unlikely to have my quiet time there la. they kip going out n my dad will go in n out of the room. - Safety... haha. i seriously dun wanna get myself injured. really!! my tournament is coming le. so ya. - Badminton Tournament (starting frm next thurs) - Safety again... - Take the game seriously. erm... seriously, i'm nt hoping to win, cos... tell u another time, nt tt... erm... wateva la! Thanks for praying... btw, before i go, i still wanna say this again. hahaha. go visit the uth blog k? n TAG! hahas. tag wateva u want. hi or wateva dou can. lol.
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